this is my obligatory “holy cannoli my original drawing has over 25,000 notes” selfie. apparently that’s what you’re supposed to do when your post gets that many notes.
but really, I can’t even believe it. thanks so much!I….I love you?
I… love you more?
These past two days have been absolutely spectacular, but this is the highlight.
All Time Low has been my favorite band for the past 5 years, and while I was able to meet them last year at Warped, I never got the chance to really talk with them - Alex in particular.
Yesterday I had my chance, and I was lucky to have it.
A little over two weeks ago I found out that I have blood clots in my lungs. It all happened pretty suddenly, but it turns out that I was very close to losing my life.
If I had died, I never would’ve been able to tell Alex just how much I really love him or get that hug I’ve been waiting so long for.
As I told Alex all of that, his eyes immediately got concerned and afterwards he told me how happy he was that I could be there that night and gave me a hug. I finally got my hug.
I realize that I’ve been given a second chance at life, and I don’t plan on wasting it. I can’t thank God enough for this man or this band, and someday I’ll make them proud.
#4 - Get a tattoo
it’s still a little red and scabby, but here it is. my first tattoo. I could type an essay on how much I love it and all that it means to me, but I’ll try and keep it short.
“Sing me to sleep” is a lyric from Lullabies, one of my favorite songs, by my favorite band, written out by my absolute hero - Alex Gaskarth. I can’t thank God enough for All Time Low, and I knew that I wanted to display my appreciation for them on me forever.
All Time Low has been my favorite band for 5 years now, and I honestly can’t express how much those boys mean to me. It’s so much more than a fangirl crush, it’s a love that will be in my heart as long as I live.
This song in particular helped me through the hardest time in my life. I know I discovered this band the time I did for a reason. I love that every time I look at this tattoo I think of the four boys who have helped shape me into who I am today as well as the memories of the day that I got this lyric written out.
I love you Alex, Jack, Rian, and Zack. Thank you for all that you’ve done.
I’m backkkkk!
I have so much to tell you guys. I’ll post a few separate posts about the amazing things that have happened over the last few weeks. and thanks for not unfollowing me!
this is me very happy because I’m halfway to my goal of 40 messages for the journal I’m giving to Pierce the Veil. Thanks again to everyone who has sent me a message to put in the journal, I can’t wait to give it to them. (If you’re seeing this for the first time and want to send your own message, check out this link)
And one more thing: after reading so many of your messages about dealing with depression and self harm, I want to say that each and every one of you is BEAUTIFUL. and I’m not just saying that to make you feel better. You each are so unique and exquisite in your own ways. Please remember that and know you are better than hurting yourself. And while music helps us all, know that you can go to your friends and family when you need help. If you want to talk to me, even, I’m here. You can talk to me about anything.
Stay strong and know that God made you just the way you’re supposed to be <3
you know what? I’m done being sad. this picture shows just how happy I was to be at that concert last night. I was with one of my best friends, in the middle of a raging crowd, right where I belong. I may have almost passed out and missed a lot of the show and not gotten my hug from Alex, but you know what? This isn’t the last time I’m seeing them. I can guarantee you that. And I WILL get my hug, if it’s the last thing I do. If there’s one thing I know about myself, it’s that I am strong and I am determined. And I will NEVER give up.
pretty much my favorite picture of the day
seriously I’m printing this and bringing it to college
waiting in the crowd for Mayday Parade <3
